The longest month of my life is finally over. And now comes another new… probably equally painful month. Will I experience every month for the rest of my life as this surreal temporal distortion of fast / slow?

A friend / colleague of mine is pissed off and frustrated at work. As am I.

And we take turns ranting or venting at each other. Even though, we are ultimately not angry at each other.

There is so much potential for good. We can still turn things around. And we speculate and muse about it. My big question mark, is really around the leader in his group, the Chief Revenue Officer (“CRO”). Because my boss / function is fine, will be fine. And I have confidence in the Tech / Product leader – we’ve already come so far. He’s a real step up compared to the guy we had before.

The CRO will have a bunch of difficult decisions to make soon, and I said I really really hope he makes the right ones. Because, selfishly, I prefer him to stay. I don’t want to have to go out and get another CRO, and waste another year. I’d rather make do with the CRO we have, if I can strong arm him to act like a sensible person, and make the right decisions, rather than wrong, stupid ones.

My friend / colleague is feeling down and losing faith in the CRO, and the Org… because of some (many) just… insane things that are going on, tolerated, and still exist.

But I have to believe that he will make the right decision. Although it often feels like I have a front row seat at a car crash movie – and part of me is eating popcorn, ready to watch the car wreck unfold; another part of me is ploughing on, on sheer determination and blind faith. I am just mentally WILLING the CRO to make the right decisions, praying that my thus-far unfounded faith in him is not misplaced (My boss did back and defend his decisions so far. So I give him a bit more credit on that basis. Although I think my boss is being a trooper / “wearing the uniform”). I am hoping that CRO is doing his part, and will make the right choices in the Commercial function, and while my boss and I do our part, stay at our post – steer the boat in the right direction, enabling some level of exploration, and boundary pushing, but be ready to move fast and decisively if needed.

After all, as I commented to my friend, I can’t just lay down and d**.

Funny how sometimes my work and personal life seem to have some commonalities, at least at a macro level. Or maybe I’m just so macro, and so pattern-seeking, that I see similar patterns and motifs everywhere, even when they don’t exist. Like me and my ‘signs’.