This morning I experienced sharp, kind of stabbing pain in my chest a few times over the course of the morning. The pain would suddenly strike… and before attenuating.

I think it’s been a while since I’ve experienced a sudden, sharp pain in my chest. Previously, this correlated with periods of very high stress at work and / or overwork.

This time, I am stressed about quite a number of things. But I don’t think work is necessarily one of them, although I do have industrial quantities of work. And we just missed our numbers, yet again.

Maybe it’s the way people are passive aggressive and / or varying types and levels of unpleasant to me at work. I sometimes think I can give Jesus a run for his money with his left cheek right cheek philosophy, and should deserve some kind of corporate sainthood.

I just don’t have the energy, personal capacity (mental, emotional) for dealing with shit at work. Not right now.

On the bright side, we have a new pick-up nanny replacement, who started today. I hope she works out and stays with us. The search was stressing me out, and I don’t want another thing to deal with. We played “Among us” – a made up game – between the kids, our old nanny, new nanny, and myself today. It was a good way to break the ice, introduce our new nanny to the game and the people, and it was nice to focus on something silly and fun. I’ll miss our old pick-up nanny. She has been our best nanny yet, and she’s so lovely, so calm, patient, good with the kids, and even good with me, and with the new nanny, in the way she briefed and helped with the transition. I’ll miss her.